Feelings

 Being in touch with how you feel is really important. Well, to me anyway. I have to understand exactly what emotion I'm feeling and why I'm feeling it, otherwise things can become messy because you just don't understand. People often mistake a lot of emotions that they're feeling for anger. Everything has become "I'm mad at so and so" or "Are you mad at me?" or "I made so and so mad" when in reality, emotions are so complex. To me, mad is the easy way out. You could feel hurt, (which in my opinion is how people usually feel when they mistakenly say they're mad) or rejected, or not good enough, or left out, or offended, or confused. 

In order to rationally understand what I'm feeling and why, I write. I write and write and write and my hand never seems to cramp. I've learned that when my feelings are hurt, I tend to act irrationally and say things that I really don't mean. It's important for me to express. It helps me figure out exactly who I am and what I believe. Because I've recently discovered how easy it is to lose yourself in other people's thoughts, and I don't want to be that kind of person anymore. God made me. He made me just how he wanted me, and I must respect his creation and truly be myself. In the words of the lovely Judy Garland,

"Always be a first rate version of yourself, rather than a second rate version of someone else."

Lazy is what we were

Rain. I like it.

I went home from school sick today. My throat is just killing me. So BOO for that. But on the plus side, I got to be super lazy with my doggies and listen to the storm go on outside the windows. I just love doing that. Being in my jammies all snuggly with a sleepy puppy curled up beside me. Yes please! This picture is a bit blurry, but it will be suffice.

So today is good and bad! But at least there is some good.

Recently

 

 Those words are just so pretty, in both languages.

February hasn't been the best month. I have not enjoyed it whatsoever. Choir has been... not fun. Too long of rehearsals. BUT I am not letting it get me down. It's almost over, and spring is almost here. I love spring, it makes everything feel fresh and new. I need that. So here's to a good next couple of weeks, I want them to be better than ever. I must find happiness in the little things because they are what really matter.

Bad Ideas

 Lucy is an interesting dog. I'd give anything just to know what she was thinking at certain moments. Like this one. I mean, logically, if it's warm outside, and the grass is all dead-like, then you roll around on the grass to get as much grass on your fur as you can before you come inside, right? Then that way all of the grass will get all over the floor in the house! Yes, that is completely plausible. It is moments like these that justify Hunter's nickname for her, "Lucifer". Pretty clever I thought. But also mean.

Things like these are just bad ideas. I have a lot of them. Like when I wear a dress to school. Almost 75% of the time I wear a dress to school (in the winter, not the spring. spring dresses make life better always) I immediately regret that decision and wish I was taking a nap at home in sweat pants. Well, I wish that regardless of my daily attire, but it is more enhanced when I wear a dress in the winter. 

Or like racing Hunter to his truck. THAT my friends, is an awful idea for many reasons. Firstly, I do not do any physical activities usually ever. (except singing and talking and dancing which all 3 can make you extremely out of breath) Secondly, Hunter is basically daddy long legs or whatever. Thirdly, Hunter plays rugby. So all of these reasons just scream "BAD IDEA" yet I still do it.

Eating tacos and sandwiches and pastries and burgers and soup (but not all at the same time) before show choir rehearsal is also a not so great plan. Movement and food babies do NOT go well together everyone. You've had your warning.

Bad Ideas. They happen often in BekahWorld.