Feelings

 Being in touch with how you feel is really important. Well, to me anyway. I have to understand exactly what emotion I'm feeling and why I'm feeling it, otherwise things can become messy because you just don't understand. People often mistake a lot of emotions that they're feeling for anger. Everything has become "I'm mad at so and so" or "Are you mad at me?" or "I made so and so mad" when in reality, emotions are so complex. To me, mad is the easy way out. You could feel hurt, (which in my opinion is how people usually feel when they mistakenly say they're mad) or rejected, or not good enough, or left out, or offended, or confused. 

In order to rationally understand what I'm feeling and why, I write. I write and write and write and my hand never seems to cramp. I've learned that when my feelings are hurt, I tend to act irrationally and say things that I really don't mean. It's important for me to express. It helps me figure out exactly who I am and what I believe. Because I've recently discovered how easy it is to lose yourself in other people's thoughts, and I don't want to be that kind of person anymore. God made me. He made me just how he wanted me, and I must respect his creation and truly be myself. In the words of the lovely Judy Garland,

"Always be a first rate version of yourself, rather than a second rate version of someone else."