Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts

I write this as I do just that, so let me apologize for the lameness of this post. I'll feel a lot better once I write it though.

There is a point when you've had enough. You're tired, you're a little bitter, but mainly you're tired. Tired of feeling drained, and sad, and regretful. This is where I am. I'm so sick and tired of people toying with my emotions, then leaving me like a sack of clothes for Goodwill. I want my emotions to not be so wrapped up in the same thing all the time, when in reality it's not getting me anywhere. I want to be happy for goodness sake! Just leave me alone. That's the main thing. Leave me BE. I wish none of it had happened and I wish I wasn't so stupid. I think about it every night, wishing I could take everything back. It's not like a band aid that was ripped off quickly so it would only hurt for a little bit. It's like an infected wound that keeps getting worse with the many germs that surround it. (sorry for the image) This wound will only get better if you treat it, and stop letting the germs make it more infected. So that's what I'm doing. I'm going to the doctor, getting a nice ointment, and RUBBING IT ALL OVER THIS STUPID, FESTERING WOUND. I choose happiness. I choose to let all of this go, and never come back. I choose NOT you.

Now I realize that at this point you have no earthly idea what I'm talking about, and you shouldn't! In fact, you don't have to. Just know that this was for me. I'm sorry you had to read it. I should have just written it in my notebook, but it feels more real this way. It felt fabulous to type it out. Know that I'm getting over something that has been driving me INSANE for the past couple months. And know that I'm choosing happiness.

Have a wonderful day! And stay tuned for a fun tutorial coming up. (: